Tuesday.
Terrific Tuesday. A day of realizations.
So I guess I can start off by a little recap of life. In general. What's been happening.
Maybe I will start with a check list..
Happiness-Check
Health-Check
Mental Well-being- Check
Confidence-Check
Learning to love myself- Check
Smiling Every day- Check
Laughing Out Loud- Check
Independence- Check
Good Friends- Check
I probably shouldn't say that today is a day of realizations... mainly because this entire year has been a revolutionary year, and to be honest, I could not be more thankful for what this past year has offered me.
I have worked through a few things. I am so thankful, and I am so happy. I finally feel like Sandy. I don't really know what else to say about that. I am learning so many things about me. I am learning that life always has an incredible way of working out. Life has an incredible way of making sense, and most of all, I am learning that thinking too much is also extremely unnecessary.
Being me is OK. Accepting that the world has a special way of doing things is actually incredible.
Energy. This is huge for me. I have become a pretty enormous believer in energy. What kind of energy am I giving off? What kind of energy am I taking from others? What kind of situations am I in that are energy- based? All the same, I believe that pretty much all situations are energy-based... but I think you have an idea of what I am saying.
One of the biggest contributing factors to my personal energy is over all health.
I realize now more than ever when I am treating my body the way it ought to be treated, it gives me a lot more freedom to be me in the world around me. Being me is far more natural when I am putting the right foods in my body, when I am working out the way that I know makes me feel best. When my body feels good, my brain is clear, when my brain is clear my energy soars. It brings the people that I want close, closer, and it allows me to disconnect from situations that are not beneficial.
OK.. NOW GET THIS. Another Realization.
IT IS TOTALLY OK TO NOT ALWAYS WANT TO BE AROUND EVERYONE. THAT IS OK!
I have also realized that I don't always have to be everyone else's rock. Don't get me wrong, I love being there for people. I love listening. I love helping others figure it out for themselves. BUT... I don't always have to do that. I have realized that I was getting myself into situations that were robbing me of my own energy, I would go home feeling... Empty... or people would leave my house, and I would be left with an overwhelming sense of emptiness and lack of fulfillment . Now, what has this realization done for me?
Most importantly, I have learned that at the end of the day, relying on yourself is extremely important. Relying on your own wants, needs and desires is incredibly refreshing. When I can wake up knowing that I am independent and completely capable without constant reassurance from others, my insides feel.... whole. Oh the beauty of writing it out..:)
It has helped me be more critical about the people that I choose to have in my life. It helped me realize that Sandy deserves to be surrounding herself with people who make her feel good. It has helped me realize that it is OK to be selfish sometimes. Wait. I don't call it selfish. I call it self-less and honestly, it is real-life. If I am not healthy mentally, physically, emotionally, then at the end of the day, I am absolutely NO GOOD to anyone else.
In order for me to be successful, in order for me to live my life to its fullest I need to take care of my roots. By my roots; I mean the rocks and the basis of my life... and what should be the basis of everyone's life really. Mental, Physical and Emotional Health. Without these needs being met, I am inevitably making my own life more challenging than it needs to be.
Life is not meant to be Hard. It's also not meant to be Easy. I think its meant to be a journey more or less. A journey with some hills to climb, and a journey with some valleys to coast down. I think its this is the way life is meant to be.
In order for anyone to experience a such a journey one must be open. One must be willing to accept that health is of utmost importance. One must be open to the concept of change. One must be authentic. One must realize that life is not black, its not white, it's a whole slew of gray. And those gray area's.. they're all OK.:)
That's all I've got.
Operation Awesome... continues..:)
